Epiphany.

I have finally made it to that point in my life where i realize why things happen...


...Because they're supposed to

-I am done trying to control what cannot be controlled
-I am done hating people who have done me wrong
-I am done hating myself for some of the choices I have made
-I am done trying to fix what can fix itself.
-I am done pretending to be strong, when it's okay to be weak
-I am done living in the past


My mind is clear for the first time in six years, and I feel like I have had a weight lifted off of my shoulders. I now know that, as hard as things may be, you wouldn't be put to it if you couldn't be put through it. All disagreements can be resolved, and all problems can be fixed, broken hearts can be mended, and even the most horrible things can be beautiful. It is ultimately up to you how you choose to go about all of the obstacles that life will throw at you, and most of us go about them wrong. We try to control the outcome of any given situation, we can never just let things be...

It's time for me to start over :)

Things may not be so great now, But they will get better. I know it

Its been a while.

I havent really had the desire to get on here and write a blog. But my life has been so stressful lately that i decided to vent.

So whats new?

well, i hate my ex. i hate my life, and really wish i could take back the past year.. I could only imagine how different things would be.

1) I would still be cheering
2) I would still be at PHS
3) I would be somewhat happy
4)I wouldnt have to deal with an immature little boy
5)I would have friends
6)I would feel like i actually mattered..

I need to find myself again, because i am clearly lost.. this post doesnt even run well together.

ehh. just a reminder to myself, ignore what comes next



how to be happy.

1. "Accept everything just the way it is."
2. "Do not seek pleasure for its own sake."
3. "Do not, under any circumstances, depend on a partial feeling."
4. "Think lightly of yourself and deeply of the world."
5. "Be detached from desire your whole life long."
6. "Do not regret what you have done."
7. "Never be jealous."
8. "Never let yourself be saddened by a separation."
9. "Resentment and complaint are appropriate neither for oneself or others."
10. "Do not let yourself be guided by the feeling of lust or love."
11. "In all things have no preferences."
12. "Be indifferent to where you live."
13. "Do not pursue the taste of good food."
14. "Do not hold on to possessions you no longer need."
15. "Do not act following customary beliefs."
16. "Do not collect weapons or practice with weapons beyond what is useful."
17. "Do not fear death."
18. "Do not seek to possess either goods or fiefs for your old age."
19. "Respect Buddha and the gods without counting on their help."
20. "You may abandon your own body but you must preserve your honour."
21. "Never stray from the Way."



I need to move, Pensacola is my poison.

-Money x Love

its been awhile.

a long while..